Parents are a treasure for sure and it is so hard to lose them. 2015 is a year of losses for me, lost both my parents. I miss them…

Today at 49 I am an adult orphan, a member of the club that no one wants to join but most will. Losing my mother in June,2015 was devastating; but when I lost my father last week it changed me forever. I felt anchorless, as if I was no longer anyone’s child. I may have looked the same but something inside me shifted.

My parents are the reason I’m here. They have been the one stable point during my whole life, the constant. Yes I’m an adult and can stand alone. But there are times I still need them, times I feel very alone. I have a lovely family and wonderful friends. But they are not my parents…

I Miss You

If I had knew then, what I know now.
I would've spent more time, with you somehow.
Time goes by now, very very fast.
I sure wish I could go back, and change the past.

Even with the days, that have gone by.
I think of you still, and I often cry.
Friends say time, makes the hurt go away.
But I think of you, each and every day.

I know I brought, all my troubles to you.
And you'd always tell me, what I should do.
I sometimes didn't listen, but you were always right.
I sure wish I could hear you, just tell me, "good night".

Sure I miss the things, you used to do for me.
My best friends for life, you will always be.
Every night and day, about you I pray.
To see you smile at me, again someday.

Now the place you're going, I may not get to go.
But I'll keep on trying, and I wanted you to know.
Now there's one more thing, I wish I could do.
I wish I could tell you, Maa and Bauji, how much I miss you.